The sun has risen on this North Carolina beach. The pelicans are flying low over the ocean waves. The sound of the water rolling and crashing onto the quiet shore is constant, and in some mystical way, soothing to the soul.
As I look through the railing on the deck I see little spider webs, and I can't help but notice how they obscure the view of the ocean below. Not unlike the bars and webs that seek to obscure the vision of the eyes of my heart. So, I ask You, Lord, clear my vision. Better yet, remove the webs and spindly rails that seek to shut my heart up and hold it prisoner.
From my journal for instance...
Having survived the fourth annual trip to the beach house... ("When are we going to get there?" "Where is everyone going to sleep?" "Why are my clothes all wet?")... I find myself fighting for joy. I guess I have placed too much pressure on "vacation at the beach". If I can't find joy here away from the hustle and bustle of life, amidst the beauty of Your creation, can I ever find it?
My heart knows deep down that true joy is only found in You, but sometimes in the midst of the constant barrage of pain and struggle, I find You elusive. Forgive my lack of understanding and courage. Thank You for Your never-ending patience with me.
Open my eyes to Your glory in the midst of it all. In Jesus' name, Amen.